So, like today I was thinking.
It is so close to the end of school and I have a bit of a confession to make, I am actually kinda looking forward to the start of a new chapter and the end of this one.
Like first I guess, I haven't taken all the opportunities offered in school, and you know, I am not regretful for that. Yeah, I may not have gone into that event or the other, but I did try things a few times and you know that's enough for me.
I guess over high school I have had a lot of experiences, which has made me who I am today and coupled with some great ones, I have had some really horrific experiences at school, not so much at IGS but at St. Catherines and you know what, I know people say, school is one of the best parts of your life, but I would be so down if my entire life amounted to only what I had experienced in school. In fact, I would probably be disappointed with myself, if I was my happiest in school. I guess we can all put on the familiar memory goggles, and be like, "Yr 10 was so fun, weren't we awesome!" but you know, I actually haven't had the best school life, being highly emotional and sorta a little bit of a wimp. And it's getting better and it will get even better as I continue on to bigger and better things. These experiences are in no way your fault, they were just how I experience life. And like I said on Saturday, I am actually really greatful you pay me out because you taught me how to take a joke (I'm still learning, you guys are like 6 yrs up on me), but you know, the learning of that was hard and I got emotional.
I have to say on the other hand, I will miss spending time with you all and seeing you everyday and stuffs, but I have to at least admit, I will be excited to meet new people and make new friends. I am not going to be all doom & gloom, the friendship ends on the 13/14th of December when we get our ATAR, but you know at uni, new friends will be made and since you all mostly want to go to USyd and I want to go to UNSW, it won't be the same.
I do say though, I am sick of being a school student. Uniforms stick out like a sore thumb and I really really cannot wait to be rid of the title. Because for me, it feels belittling, like I cannot do anything or think of anything to someone older. Essentially that I am immature and irresponsible. And you know sometimes I get sick of it and I enjoy when I am on the bus without my uniform and I don't have the label of a school student. I dunno maybe it's just me, but I am sick of being labelled a school kid as if that all I contribute to the world is loudness and a bad taste in music. I guess it is for me personally another step in the direction of maturity and having my own life, where I am not considered as a singular of a large unit but as a person, someone with their own unique experiences and their own space. (I actually dream about living alone sometimes (just for the quiet and sentimentality of the moment))
I guess what I am trying to say, is I have come to terms with the leaving, by god, I will probably cry a fricking river on the last day, but you know, I am kinda happy I am done with school.
But then you know I guess it is sad to admit, that school is ending but to be honest, to put it clicheed and sadly, If life is a book, then it is the ultimate page turner because you can never flick to the end, you just gotta live it and love it.
And you know that's kinda how I feel at the moment. I'm looking forward to the next chapter.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
I just feel like I have to say this right now
It's too easy to be negative and reject new ideas because they seem too hard to do.
People need to be more positive and embracing of new and different ideas.
One of the things game design taught me is that the best way to treat new ideas is to think about the idea first, then the technicalities later
If the original idea is actually reduced because it's hard to do / pull off, you're doing it wrong
Because the important part is the what, not the how
Great and amazing things are done by having big ideas and living up to them, but the best that can be achieved with practicality in mind the whole time is 'good'.
Why can't everyone have more optimism?
You miss every shot you don't take
People need to be more positive and embracing of new and different ideas.
One of the things game design taught me is that the best way to treat new ideas is to think about the idea first, then the technicalities later
If the original idea is actually reduced because it's hard to do / pull off, you're doing it wrong
Because the important part is the what, not the how
Great and amazing things are done by having big ideas and living up to them, but the best that can be achieved with practicality in mind the whole time is 'good'.
Why can't everyone have more optimism?
You miss every shot you don't take
将来
School is coming closer to the end you guys... I just can't get my head around it. It's like...are we becoming free, or are we just preparing on a more advanced level for our working future (through uni etc etc)
Im gonna go on exchange for a year...and so are a few others. Boy oh boy, im gonna miss you guys heaps huh. I guess no matter what we do we'll all become stronger and probably learn new things that make us better people too.
But we can't separate!
I mean, its easy to become distracted and forget about our comparatively "easy-high-school-past" when we are ahead in future, and along with that comes friends too. But shit man you guys are the source of who i am really, we can't lose touch yeah?
Sunlight hurts my eyes
i love it when im reading a manga and playing music, and the chorus/drop comes it right before a super intense battle.
just thought i would share. claymore is sooo gooooddd
goddam what i would give to travel right now
just thought i would share. claymore is sooo gooooddd
goddam what i would give to travel right now
c-c-c-combo!!!
Aight ya'll, so this is basically going to be a combination of some thoughts i've had for a while but just want to express to everyone, mainly from ru and hui's last posts and the "what i want to do when i grow up post" ('cause I was to lazy to answer that then).
This is based off Ru's to do with looks:
As Childish Gambino just said over my speakers
"But I'm happy that that shit happened to me
Cause it taught me most important is to do me"
So first of all, i think that to a degree everyone has self esteem issues, but it's just a matter of what you do about it. in my case, it's obvious that i wanna have a 6-pack n stuff and consequently i'm regularly going to the gym and stuff so that i can. and it's cool. like, getting fitter (e.g. i can now beat jon in an arm wrestle and can easily run further than him and especially when i look back to myself before when i had a lot of trouble riding my bike over the ANZAC bridge whereas i can now easily do it is pretty awesome). I think that at least in my case, the sense of achievement that i feel at having an achievable goal is cool and when you actually realise that you are getting fitter and stuff, then it's cool to see the change.
So that loosely related to ru's things on aesthetics so here is something that is closer to her last two posts... I think its annoying when people hate how they look and stuff in photos, i mean everyone has bad photos. And especially when it's something like our group which i believe has no ugly people in it. Like there are heaps of bad photos of me but i accept that they're there and am like "all the crazy stuffs i did that night, those will be the best memories" or something like that. I mean i dressed horribly at Blackheath and as such there are heaps of bad photos of me but that was one of my favourite times of my life and i wouldn't change that and i had fun with the horrendousness and as such i think that they should try to too.
As related to her other post, it sucks that you didn't get the mark you wanted and that he plagiarised (from what you said as i haven't actually seen/remember the one from the year book). but (just trying to see it from both sides) as far as i know, he did put in a lot of work, so it's not like he totally didn't deserve the mark. But yeah, for mine i would have liked just a bit higher but the cards have been dealt and we just have to hope for the best and when I get my marks back, I'll be able to shout "BLACKJACK!!!" cause i did well (cause of the card thing above).
The CG quote relates to everything cause this post was about aesthetics and he's talking about working with what you get and making the best out of your situation.
Next point is related to hui's post.
Watching TV and stuff, I really hope that i can some day be rich (and hopefully famous) enough to have a really awesome life where i can travel heaps with my awesome family and while i'm still a bachelor i can have a super awesome chill life. I think i read somewhere in there about "chill" which reminds me of one of the things i want most from schoolies. This thing is to have a few super chill times. what i mean by this is like sitting on the beach for a while and just taking in the atmosphere and how awesome our lives are or the same thing but on the balcony or walking through the streets. Like recently i've been either riding my bike or walking between the two buildings at night between jon's house and gym or wherever else and (especially with cool music playing) i realise how privileged we are and how awesome technology and life is and it's just SUPER COOL and AWESOME!!! Now this doesn't mean i want to be a kill joy or anything, like i still wanna party and stuff but i also just really want to have these awesome memories which i think can be just as important (for reminiscing) as the group at a party or whatever. you get me?
And props to emily, that photo is pretty chill.
My final thing was my job when i am older/ what i want to do with my life (which was asked a while ago).
Well i think that my most achievable goal is to be an architect, cause that seems like a cool job and fun and i can also get lost of money and maybe even be famous from my achievements in the designing field. Now for the more obscure, which i probable won't ever do. First up we'll say about how it'd be cool to be a famous musician and/or actor just like Childish Gambino or Will Smith who are both awesome!!! cause i think that'd be fun. Second up is being an elite soldier in the SAS or something just because i have heaps of respect for them and i think it'd be cool to have that sort of respect (except that i don't want to kill people, so that's a bit of an issue and as such one of the main reasons why that wouldn't happen), but i think i will join the army reserves because you still get skills and training and it just seems pretty cool (ya'll should do it too). Next up is winning the Tour de France, just cause that seems fun. But if you try and do intense training on a bike, you realise that it's surprisingly very difficult to sustain their speed and power over the distance they travel in one day, let alone a whole month (and coupled with my leg issues, this seems unlikely). But i would really like to ride across australia on a push bike (we have a family friend/ relative, but not to me who did it and it just seems like it was a cool thing to do). I'd also really like to learn how to repair motorbikes and then buy one cheaply, restore it and then ride it from the bottom of asia to the tip of Scotland (or something massive like that) just cause that also seems awesome and the stories that i'd get from it would last a life time. I also want to set foot on every continent in the world. And also i wouldn't mind dabbling in the fashion industry, cause i like fly clothes. So i think that's pretty much everything.
And in relation to what i'd do with a million dollars, i'd buy a $100,000 car (it'd be so fly), spend like $25,000 on clothes, take my family on an awesome holiday for about $50,000, buy a $500,000-600,000 house and spend the rest renovating it and get into the renovating industry and make more money that way (if I could put some away, it'd put $100,000 away for uni and random other stuff/if i or anyone i know ever really needs money then it's there) and i'd spend the spare $25,000 on a motorbike.
So that's a pretty long post and all but that's what i think at the moment.
See ya
This is based off Ru's to do with looks:
As Childish Gambino just said over my speakers
"But I'm happy that that shit happened to me
Cause it taught me most important is to do me"
So first of all, i think that to a degree everyone has self esteem issues, but it's just a matter of what you do about it. in my case, it's obvious that i wanna have a 6-pack n stuff and consequently i'm regularly going to the gym and stuff so that i can. and it's cool. like, getting fitter (e.g. i can now beat jon in an arm wrestle and can easily run further than him and especially when i look back to myself before when i had a lot of trouble riding my bike over the ANZAC bridge whereas i can now easily do it is pretty awesome). I think that at least in my case, the sense of achievement that i feel at having an achievable goal is cool and when you actually realise that you are getting fitter and stuff, then it's cool to see the change.
So that loosely related to ru's things on aesthetics so here is something that is closer to her last two posts... I think its annoying when people hate how they look and stuff in photos, i mean everyone has bad photos. And especially when it's something like our group which i believe has no ugly people in it. Like there are heaps of bad photos of me but i accept that they're there and am like "all the crazy stuffs i did that night, those will be the best memories" or something like that. I mean i dressed horribly at Blackheath and as such there are heaps of bad photos of me but that was one of my favourite times of my life and i wouldn't change that and i had fun with the horrendousness and as such i think that they should try to too.
As related to her other post, it sucks that you didn't get the mark you wanted and that he plagiarised (from what you said as i haven't actually seen/remember the one from the year book). but (just trying to see it from both sides) as far as i know, he did put in a lot of work, so it's not like he totally didn't deserve the mark. But yeah, for mine i would have liked just a bit higher but the cards have been dealt and we just have to hope for the best and when I get my marks back, I'll be able to shout "BLACKJACK!!!" cause i did well (cause of the card thing above).
The CG quote relates to everything cause this post was about aesthetics and he's talking about working with what you get and making the best out of your situation.
Next point is related to hui's post.
Watching TV and stuff, I really hope that i can some day be rich (and hopefully famous) enough to have a really awesome life where i can travel heaps with my awesome family and while i'm still a bachelor i can have a super awesome chill life. I think i read somewhere in there about "chill" which reminds me of one of the things i want most from schoolies. This thing is to have a few super chill times. what i mean by this is like sitting on the beach for a while and just taking in the atmosphere and how awesome our lives are or the same thing but on the balcony or walking through the streets. Like recently i've been either riding my bike or walking between the two buildings at night between jon's house and gym or wherever else and (especially with cool music playing) i realise how privileged we are and how awesome technology and life is and it's just SUPER COOL and AWESOME!!! Now this doesn't mean i want to be a kill joy or anything, like i still wanna party and stuff but i also just really want to have these awesome memories which i think can be just as important (for reminiscing) as the group at a party or whatever. you get me?
And props to emily, that photo is pretty chill.
My final thing was my job when i am older/ what i want to do with my life (which was asked a while ago).
Well i think that my most achievable goal is to be an architect, cause that seems like a cool job and fun and i can also get lost of money and maybe even be famous from my achievements in the designing field. Now for the more obscure, which i probable won't ever do. First up we'll say about how it'd be cool to be a famous musician and/or actor just like Childish Gambino or Will Smith who are both awesome!!! cause i think that'd be fun. Second up is being an elite soldier in the SAS or something just because i have heaps of respect for them and i think it'd be cool to have that sort of respect (except that i don't want to kill people, so that's a bit of an issue and as such one of the main reasons why that wouldn't happen), but i think i will join the army reserves because you still get skills and training and it just seems pretty cool (ya'll should do it too). Next up is winning the Tour de France, just cause that seems fun. But if you try and do intense training on a bike, you realise that it's surprisingly very difficult to sustain their speed and power over the distance they travel in one day, let alone a whole month (and coupled with my leg issues, this seems unlikely). But i would really like to ride across australia on a push bike (we have a family friend/ relative, but not to me who did it and it just seems like it was a cool thing to do). I'd also really like to learn how to repair motorbikes and then buy one cheaply, restore it and then ride it from the bottom of asia to the tip of Scotland (or something massive like that) just cause that also seems awesome and the stories that i'd get from it would last a life time. I also want to set foot on every continent in the world. And also i wouldn't mind dabbling in the fashion industry, cause i like fly clothes. So i think that's pretty much everything.
And in relation to what i'd do with a million dollars, i'd buy a $100,000 car (it'd be so fly), spend like $25,000 on clothes, take my family on an awesome holiday for about $50,000, buy a $500,000-600,000 house and spend the rest renovating it and get into the renovating industry and make more money that way (if I could put some away, it'd put $100,000 away for uni and random other stuff/if i or anyone i know ever really needs money then it's there) and i'd spend the spare $25,000 on a motorbike.
So that's a pretty long post and all but that's what i think at the moment.
See ya
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
3000th POST BITCHES
3000th POST!!!!!!!!!!!!
HELL YEH, I have been waiting for this for like a month.
On another note, I am so proud of us as a blog, we are fucking awesome to have this many posts and still be going. Yay US!!!!!!!!
HELL YEH, I have been waiting for this for like a month.
On another note, I am so proud of us as a blog, we are fucking awesome to have this many posts and still be going. Yay US!!!!!!!!
Reach for the stars so if you fall you land on a cloud.
so like. sometimes i watch TV, read the news or surf the internet etc , i learn about the lives of other people, and im like, damn i wish i could accomplish what they can, or i wish i could live out my life like they do.
you know, like sometimes i see a documentary on gangs and shit and im like, damn it would be mad if i was involved in crazy shit like that
but then i realise, the grass is always greener, because most grass is green and it makes no sense, its like saying a piece of paper is more papery, wait, that kinda makes sense, cos some paper can be less papery like crepe paper, IDK, thats not the point.
i freakin love my life and everything in it. sometimes i see other people and i would be like, hey, it would be cool if i could be more outgoing or normal but then, i think, hold up, i aint like them. Im myself. and i love myself and who i is. i actually try to justify a lot by sayin i was born this way but i know that everything about me reflects on my life experiences, no one is born anyway (except for like default settings like gender, race, sexuality, etc things you cant choose, you know)
sometimes i get angry at someone cos they annoying and i talk shit about them, but really, its not exactly their fault, its just their life experience and up bringing, which is why i try not to hold grudges and why my opinion of somebody can change in a second.
anyway, i semi-forgot my point so im just gonna say what comes to mind. cos its fun haha, i think im waayy too comfortable with my life, like its just been so good so far. i know i cry alot and whine and shit but i really dont mean it, its just the way i is. and sometimes i cant believe how accepting i am of myself. like i dont use make-up not really because i think its silly eventho i say that, its cos i just 100% feel like i, really, dont need, it.
and i guess it is ok for me to be ok with myself, cos if theres something im unhappy about, i work to change it, i make concious efforts.
Man, when i heard kanye say "reach for the stars, so if you fall you land on a cloud", i didnt realise how much it would affect me. but it makes so much sense. man i love music
im soo happy guys weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
EDIT: i forgot to say this but i've been noticing some apologising/excusing of rants/opinions, and i think its sirry cos this is a random stuffs blog and we should be able to express anger/hate/self indulgence etc if we want to. i learn more about everyone everytime they post and i love the debates and disagreements etc etc
you know, like sometimes i see a documentary on gangs and shit and im like, damn it would be mad if i was involved in crazy shit like that
but then i realise, the grass is always greener, because most grass is green and it makes no sense, its like saying a piece of paper is more papery, wait, that kinda makes sense, cos some paper can be less papery like crepe paper, IDK, thats not the point.
i freakin love my life and everything in it. sometimes i see other people and i would be like, hey, it would be cool if i could be more outgoing or normal but then, i think, hold up, i aint like them. Im myself. and i love myself and who i is. i actually try to justify a lot by sayin i was born this way but i know that everything about me reflects on my life experiences, no one is born anyway (except for like default settings like gender, race, sexuality, etc things you cant choose, you know)
sometimes i get angry at someone cos they annoying and i talk shit about them, but really, its not exactly their fault, its just their life experience and up bringing, which is why i try not to hold grudges and why my opinion of somebody can change in a second.
anyway, i semi-forgot my point so im just gonna say what comes to mind. cos its fun haha, i think im waayy too comfortable with my life, like its just been so good so far. i know i cry alot and whine and shit but i really dont mean it, its just the way i is. and sometimes i cant believe how accepting i am of myself. like i dont use make-up not really because i think its silly eventho i say that, its cos i just 100% feel like i, really, dont need, it.
and i guess it is ok for me to be ok with myself, cos if theres something im unhappy about, i work to change it, i make concious efforts.
Man, when i heard kanye say "reach for the stars, so if you fall you land on a cloud", i didnt realise how much it would affect me. but it makes so much sense. man i love music
im soo happy guys weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
EDIT: i forgot to say this but i've been noticing some apologising/excusing of rants/opinions, and i think its sirry cos this is a random stuffs blog and we should be able to express anger/hate/self indulgence etc if we want to. i learn more about everyone everytime they post and i love the debates and disagreements etc etc
Looks and self esteem shit.
Hello dear friends. Today the topic of my post is people and their obssession with appearance.
The context is that I wanted to take pictures of my friends today outside the art room and I wanted people to be in the photos to represent our memories and treasured times we have spent together. But when you take pictures, there is always someone talking about how unattractive they look and are and how they always look unattractive in photos. Some refused to be in photos because they felt that they did not look good. Which is quite strange.
Now I will begin with my view. My view which is usually odd and not with the norm. I feel that if you are with your friends and just taking pictures with your friends, there is no need to look special and good or anything. I think the memories held in photos have a larger importance then how one looks in the photo. When I told one of them that she looked really pretty today, she just exclaimed that she felt like she wasnt and that 'she nearly threw up after seeing her reflection'. Now I know that she was just exxagerating but my point is that, when in situations with your friends, I don't think that people should worry or really care about their appearance. I mean, there is sooooo much more to people than how they look and after the photo is taken, it is usually a 'omg i look soo unattractive in that' or 'I look so bad' remark when I feel that the setting and the atmosphere of the photo is much more than that.
And to be honest, i feel like the people around us don't care. Are we so shallow to care about how our friend looks that day? If people around you don't care then why should you? I mean it's nice to look nice and to feel good but I feel that if people can only see their physical appearance in the situation and nothing else.. its like, idk how to say it... I just feel that at this point in time, you have spent so much time with people and now we are ending our highschool time so we take the extra effort to create memories with each other because it might not last but all people can think of is how they look.
and its a reflection of the world around us and how people feel. Anyway, I know that I'm overeacting but it just made me feel a bit sad.
thank you for your time .
The context is that I wanted to take pictures of my friends today outside the art room and I wanted people to be in the photos to represent our memories and treasured times we have spent together. But when you take pictures, there is always someone talking about how unattractive they look and are and how they always look unattractive in photos. Some refused to be in photos because they felt that they did not look good. Which is quite strange.
Now I will begin with my view. My view which is usually odd and not with the norm. I feel that if you are with your friends and just taking pictures with your friends, there is no need to look special and good or anything. I think the memories held in photos have a larger importance then how one looks in the photo. When I told one of them that she looked really pretty today, she just exclaimed that she felt like she wasnt and that 'she nearly threw up after seeing her reflection'. Now I know that she was just exxagerating but my point is that, when in situations with your friends, I don't think that people should worry or really care about their appearance. I mean, there is sooooo much more to people than how they look and after the photo is taken, it is usually a 'omg i look soo unattractive in that' or 'I look so bad' remark when I feel that the setting and the atmosphere of the photo is much more than that.
And to be honest, i feel like the people around us don't care. Are we so shallow to care about how our friend looks that day? If people around you don't care then why should you? I mean it's nice to look nice and to feel good but I feel that if people can only see their physical appearance in the situation and nothing else.. its like, idk how to say it... I just feel that at this point in time, you have spent so much time with people and now we are ending our highschool time so we take the extra effort to create memories with each other because it might not last but all people can think of is how they look.
and its a reflection of the world around us and how people feel. Anyway, I know that I'm overeacting but it just made me feel a bit sad.
thank you for your time .
Monday, August 29, 2011
Towards the end
I think i really learn the lessens of life at the end of the art process because really, the art world is a reflection of the real world.
I dont want people to read this and think that i am dissing other peoples artworks and stuff, its just what ive seen and learnt from this process.
Art marking, when they mark the works for art, no one sees the process and no one sees the effort. So in the end, it doesnt matter whose idea it was or how much time and effort was put into the work but it is the end result.
And this is true to the real world. No one cares about how long something took, no one sees the blood sweat and tears (to use a cliche) and because of that, they can just judge it on some criteria that has been written.
Actually, this is probably going to be a rant about my own disspointment and its probably going to be quite whiny and rude and self indulgent and almost an ego something something.
So there are many factors that take play in my perspective like I only see what i'm going through, i dont know what other people are going through and I only judge by what I see and these views that I have may be incorrect.
So I was a little (well not really more like very) dissapointed with my art result because it was lower than what I got last time. I had a few rants about how other people didnt deserve the high mark they had due to things like, that they didnt make their own concept or it wasnt their idea or they didnt spend very much time on it or that they used their art periods to do other class's homework. But then i got over it because, i was thinking, ok, its a process, its the real world, no one cares and it isnt that person's fault they got a high mark. And then i started dissing the system, about how the markers didnt care for concept but then i felt bad cause it almost seemed like I wanted other people to do badly which i didnt.
So then i had to stop dissing things. But then today. I found out, that someone's art work seemed to be a complete rip off of another IGS student's work from 2 years ago. When i saw the intense similarities, i thought, oh, he must be appropriating the work or taking inspiration from it or it is a shheeerr coincidence (lol jokes i didnt think that). So i went up to him and asked him about it and he said that he 'subconciously got the idea from there'... strange thing to blame the subconcious. I mean, i dont mind if someone takes someone else's idea (its art for gods sake) but when they start to take credit as if it was their original idea.. i get a bit iffed. But it was mainly my own dissapointment because i was really impressed by his works, and i thought it was really original and i always went on about how it was only possible for someone like him to come up with such an idea but then it felt like.. i dunno ... lies..? (sorry to be such a dramatic)
I mean, i remember (now this is going to be really really egoistic but i really want to be honest) when declan came up to him and said that his art was the most original piece of art he had ever seen and that his work was the most original out of everyones i was like, gee i thought mine was pretty original.. or Lord of the palmtrees.. I thought that my work was a little bit more original than that so i felt offended (see i told you i was going to be all up myself and shit) but at that time i sort of agreed as well.
and now.. its like.. he does better than me when it isnt really his idea and i just being all stupid and whiny or some shit, feel like Ive spent sooooo much effort on making something different and original and yea. I dont know. I guess thats how the art world works and thats how the real world works.
No one cares for your original ideas or effort or time. um, if you're still reading, i have a feeling that this is going to be retarded to read because I feel as though ive lost my ability to make proper sentences.
um.. its been some time since i made a rant and i hope im not trying to be rude.. um.. since Ive come this far im going to press publish so please do your best to not be offended or anything...
I dont want people to read this and think that i am dissing other peoples artworks and stuff, its just what ive seen and learnt from this process.
Art marking, when they mark the works for art, no one sees the process and no one sees the effort. So in the end, it doesnt matter whose idea it was or how much time and effort was put into the work but it is the end result.
And this is true to the real world. No one cares about how long something took, no one sees the blood sweat and tears (to use a cliche) and because of that, they can just judge it on some criteria that has been written.
Actually, this is probably going to be a rant about my own disspointment and its probably going to be quite whiny and rude and self indulgent and almost an ego something something.
So there are many factors that take play in my perspective like I only see what i'm going through, i dont know what other people are going through and I only judge by what I see and these views that I have may be incorrect.
So I was a little (well not really more like very) dissapointed with my art result because it was lower than what I got last time. I had a few rants about how other people didnt deserve the high mark they had due to things like, that they didnt make their own concept or it wasnt their idea or they didnt spend very much time on it or that they used their art periods to do other class's homework. But then i got over it because, i was thinking, ok, its a process, its the real world, no one cares and it isnt that person's fault they got a high mark. And then i started dissing the system, about how the markers didnt care for concept but then i felt bad cause it almost seemed like I wanted other people to do badly which i didnt.
So then i had to stop dissing things. But then today. I found out, that someone's art work seemed to be a complete rip off of another IGS student's work from 2 years ago. When i saw the intense similarities, i thought, oh, he must be appropriating the work or taking inspiration from it or it is a shheeerr coincidence (lol jokes i didnt think that). So i went up to him and asked him about it and he said that he 'subconciously got the idea from there'... strange thing to blame the subconcious. I mean, i dont mind if someone takes someone else's idea (its art for gods sake) but when they start to take credit as if it was their original idea.. i get a bit iffed. But it was mainly my own dissapointment because i was really impressed by his works, and i thought it was really original and i always went on about how it was only possible for someone like him to come up with such an idea but then it felt like.. i dunno ... lies..? (sorry to be such a dramatic)
I mean, i remember (now this is going to be really really egoistic but i really want to be honest) when declan came up to him and said that his art was the most original piece of art he had ever seen and that his work was the most original out of everyones i was like, gee i thought mine was pretty original.. or Lord of the palmtrees.. I thought that my work was a little bit more original than that so i felt offended (see i told you i was going to be all up myself and shit) but at that time i sort of agreed as well.
and now.. its like.. he does better than me when it isnt really his idea and i just being all stupid and whiny or some shit, feel like Ive spent sooooo much effort on making something different and original and yea. I dont know. I guess thats how the art world works and thats how the real world works.
No one cares for your original ideas or effort or time. um, if you're still reading, i have a feeling that this is going to be retarded to read because I feel as though ive lost my ability to make proper sentences.
um.. its been some time since i made a rant and i hope im not trying to be rude.. um.. since Ive come this far im going to press publish so please do your best to not be offended or anything...
Sunday, August 28, 2011
My Name is MinHO!
Minho! the most awesome SHINee
cos you guize tots care.
on another note, i just finished my D&T wooooooooooooooo
also guys, get ready to be sick of me cos im going to make-up for my lack of social life in the past 2 months
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