Hey wonder~

Are governments and their control really necessary? I hope one day when we are a highly intelligent race with a 100% educated people we could co-ordinate and dismiss the 'big brother' mentality that we are headed to.

It's crazy how we are the future. But will soon be the past.

Today whilst walking home, I saw what looked like a hipster party at a cafe, and as I closed in saw that it was a celebration for a lady who just turned 100 and is throwing a public party (trust the hipsters to a) be the ones to find out about it and b) mooch for all the free food and booze).

But like... 100... That's an achievement. Irrational for most, but possible for some. It's weird how we have to die, i wonder what comes of it.

人生は不思議
(what it says under HEY WONDER in the video, means life is strange).

That is just the tip of the iceberg of how i've been thinking as of late. Think think thinkinggg

After all the planning i was doing for exchange sem 2 next year...turns out i just remembered my bro gets married in dec. Bye spainnnn. I guess i'm stuck in straya for a while

Waste

I find myself throwing out a lot of pill bottles and boxes and things cause I take a lot of medicine now. I feel like I'm doing things they do in movies and TV to represent addiction in a way, I find movies don't really represent where I sit in my life very much, particularly not in terms of (lack of) addiction. But anyway, I chuck out a lot of medication bottles, sachets, packaging, and it seems like it's always used to represent some sort of addiction and this is a weird thing that constant medication use means to me. Like many people, most people in fact that take constant medication are not addicted to it, they just need it to get by, like me, so why is addiction the first thing that springs to mind? Like I mean I semi-know the answer but I also sorta don't.

People don't want to be confronted with sick people but that implies everyone who takes medication everyday is sick, which is kinda not really 100% true. I mean, people on the pill could be taking medication each day, they aren't necessarily sick, like there's a massive contrast between being confronted with people who are sick and basically bedridden, and taking medication and people who are taking medication on a daily basis and still functioning and basically having a normal life, and there's many shades between.

I don't really have a point.

In other news, I had an ultrasound this week and I get to have another one next week, and there was another blood test, so yeah, I'm really glad medicare exists. So many doctors. I've literally had like 13 different tests in the past 18 months like scans or electrical measures, x-ray, LP, etc, and so many blood tests. Like so many. I think they've tested my general blood count, whatever that is, like 5 times now. My symptoms are acting up 99 different ways and worsening and I honestly just don't know how to deal with it all. I just don't even know what to do any more, like the symptoms are becoming the focus but not even because I'm focusing on them because there are so many of them they sort of cover over things, maybe I should go see somebody, or something, I dunno. Fuck, sorry guys, shit's hard right now, it's been a not good week.

Anyway, here is a picture of something nice

A photo of a baby monkey I took in India

this song gets me through the days

making a game

so I'm making a game again in my spare time
this time using an adult programming language
check it out here

...ok I'll admit there's not a lot there at the moment

Essays and no.

I should be doing my essay but I don't wanna. So many methods of procrastination, it's due on Wednesday though and I don't want to be rushing to complete it then in case I feel shitty then, and it's a bad day. So I have to at least write a rough draft today, so it's all good for Wednesday if things are not good. Busy week is busy

Also, check this photo out from the cocktail evening. my mum thought this photo was funny, cause we were all looking one direction (except Marlena).

I'm on a photo binge atm, anyway, I will go back to writing/starting my essay now.

I woke up at 7, gamed till 9-9:30, then went back to sleep till 12... Then woke up and forgot i gamed and was surprised/sad to see i'd already done the achievements. I also watched avatar in that time, and forgot. #beingprepared

Ha ha ha. ha ha ha. ha. ha

its naruto day.. they did it.. seven hunned..

also this is the 4200th post of this blog (includin unpublished drafts)

Update in my life.

my roommates are in a passive aggressive fight because one of them was telling me about how she couldn't sleep since the other was having really bad loud sex and she was all:

"You know what it is, they've been going out for 4 months and he's just not good. She's so loud because it's all fake, it sounds like really bad porn. (I was all yea you know all about bad porn) It's not even passionate. It's just bad fake sex."

And my other roommate overheard this so.

Friendly reminder that Naruto(manga) ends on November 10th

Also I really suck at keeping in contact with all of you but I really miss you guy's vibe and love for life more then anything.