im having a panic attack

i don't know what i'm doing.
i just feel really anxious and paranoid like the past few weeks
like i don't know if i really want to be doing science
this is such a drag.
i just constantly feel like a disappointment and this isnt fun anymore
i'm not doing anything i feel i'm good at.
i just want this to be over
i think everyone's looking at me like i'm an idiot
i think people don't understand why i'm here
and neither do i
i feel super awkward around everyone
i'm like 200x less confident here and less sure of myself
i don't feel like im as into this or as intelligent as everyone else
i keep comforting myself by saying shit like 'at least i can draw' to myself
that isnt gonna help me do good here
i dont know.
i dont know what to do
i cant tell anyone here
i feel like im a waste of money
im just not gonna get this
i need to stop being so negative
i want to punch a wall

Guys

It is only in dating, that I realise how truly picky I am. Which is extremely picky btw, like almost excessively so. I'm just like, nope at such little things. 

I just posted on chat, but i'll say it here

So, i just looked at my uni results and saw that i passed a subject, which i was 100% certain would be my first fail in education history.... I prepared my mind that I'd have to do an extra subject in future to balance it out and would have to break my no fail streak but fuck you uni! I done did it ( ^3^)~<3

Also i really liked the subject (Japanese history) except my essay writing skills are still at the elementary level so proving that was difficult.

I hope you all did/go well, blackheath!!!

Peace

gerenuk's are weird

I mean look at them! they can stand on 2 legs like people and bears.

Gerenuks are also known as Waller's gazelle


Look at them!! Using their hooves to do tree leaf things together all like 'hey therese did you see yo boy silas with that new gazelle whatshername with that long neck of hers. girl you better watch out like'

I came across this screenshot in my my images folder, labeled "life is pain"

Everything about this hurts

super awkward sardinian music video

like seriously this thing is super awkward especially with the old guy. but still. props to them for making a song in sardo