Why

I'm trying to sleep but I can't and all I can think about is why do I have my accent??? Like one day I just decided I wanted to sound like this and now I can't talk out of it??? Even tho all my friends speak  in a different normal accent? And so does everyone else around me? I must sound so out of place all the time.

Also every time I go on some subreddit to read about things I like, I find that the rest of the fandom totally disagrees with me. It's kinda weird that we're all into this one niche but like different bits of it?? Or view areas within sooo polarizingly

Thank you like a version

sad days become ok nights

sometimes i wanna stay awake and keep staying awake because if i sleep i'll have to stop listening to the music. The ones with crazy arrangements get me man