Why

does the word valuable and invaluable mean almost the same thing.

i keep get the confuse

art is also writing chinese names with tofu

THIS MUCH IMPORTANTE

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today i was like reading an article, and in it was a list of things

in the comments section, someone was referring to one of the listed subjects

it was like 'i dont understand how #4 is..."
and instead of reading it as 'number 4'

different boy hugging maxim

boy hugging maxim

Consistency

I love change.
I do.
That's the way things grow and develop and get better etc etc

but consistency man.
i just love it.
You know that person that when you first meet does something that makes everyone kinda uncomfortable. cause it's like awkward or something. and at first you're thinking 'man stop being so weird dude' but they dont stop. and eventually its endearing and identifying and they're respected for that. or something. it becomes a unique characteristic.

and like when the songs/music and structure of a show remains unchanged for 14 years and 28 seasons. or the host says the same thing every single time. like when jeff probst says  "once the votes are read the decision is final. Person voted out will be asked to leave the tribal council area immediately" and when they play the same opening, closing voting, victory, dramatic music etc.
there's comfort in familiarity i guess.

yes this is about survivor.
sorry not sorry.
my experience when watching survivor can only be described as euphoric.

I fucking love this picture

why is errything happening on the 17th of april

why

pls why

people should organize things in the daytime

also i just realized our break starts after this week.

best. news. ever. 

gonna catch up on so much wo(survivor reruns)rk

weeknights. 

procrastination

what are you doing with your life

lookin through the odd future tumblr to find that one picture of lucas vercetti lambert told you about

what are you supposed to be doing

what even is procrastination

what is 

cant find the pic. heres a lion. loiter squad

Do you ever look at your FB wall/timeline and think, this is not who I am.

TOday

I got home at 8:30, and dicked around til 11pm, fell asleep, woke up at 3 am, chugged a bottle of ice mocha and then..



didn't do work until now.

it's almost 7am and I didn't work.


i suck all the ball

Today, I was sitting at my desk and everything was chill, doing my uni work, relaxing. Anyway, I got up to say hi to mum who had just walked in the door and my brain had like an attack as I stood up, possibly caused by standing up I don't really know and basically I collapsed in my own doorway and I couldn't get up because of severe vertigo. It wasn't even the world was spinning, it was just like the video game control angles were all wrong like before, I couldn't walk without holding onto something for like 15 minutes, and even sitting down I almost fell off the chair a few times, because I was leaning over without realising it. I think it must have been some sort of weird migraine cause then I got a splitting headache for about an hour after. Usually I'd get visual auras before a migraine but my medication suppresses those sorts of things.

Anyway, I really hope that doesn't happen again, I mean this is the reason I chose open University and the thing that led to me being house bound for those 3 months last year, where the vertigo was that first symptom to appear.  The inevitable question that comes to mind is whether this is another flare up of the same thing? Is it another stage of the same thing? Or is it just an extra thing to add to the list? I don't know.

I find myself at a bit of a loss as the months pass and I am still not symptom free, I do try and remain positive, but with literally seeing your symptoms that can be difficult. I don't really know what to say when people say, it could be going away and the trend for me at least, if I am 100% honest with you, is increasing symptoms as time goes on, not decreasing, that is a difficult assumption to stay positive to. I can't really say what the medication has an effect on, although I can say, the tracking, while still around when on my medication is remarkably improved by it.
The tracking by the way is best described by this photo,

the glowsticks in the photo basically have a trail, you can see that trail with the aid of the camera, I can see trails like that after pretty much everything, when I am not on medication. It happens because something in my brain is being a little bit overactive, that's the theory anyway, and would explain why it's worse when I am really anxious, the tracking is usually only if I move past something or if I move something quickly in front of my face but in bad cases, can even extend to when I move my eyes, so there will be trails like that.
Sounds cool. Really isn't.

Put it this way, it's ok most of the time, but you see how in that image, it's also like there are a few copies in some places, same thing in my vision, when you wake up in the morning and everything has a trail, the fridge, the bed, the cupboard, the curtains, the doorframe, the floorboards, it's like the worlds is fucking with you. All you want is for it all to just piss off back down to one edge.

Anyway, I've ranted enough, look at this awesome photo I took ages ago but edited today I was super proud of it.















Also uni is going super well, and that's awesome and I'm really glad I have you guys