2014 summary

This year was a rollercoaster.

Finished my second year of uni, recovered from shoulder surgery, saved up and went to Canadia, and to top it off got my motorbike L's. That ain't all though... I saw $1200 go down the drain due to various fines, and didn't do one exercise activity (except a few runs here and there) and became a vessel for hundreds (?) of lil' parasites.
I turned 21, went to two engagements of close family, lost no family/ everyone is still healthy.

I'm still not president of Earth so i'm kinda sad. But i have sick friends and famiry so nothings stopping me yet

2014 lettuce wrap

Hey y'all! Happy fucking January 2015 to all my favourite humans!
First I would like to thank Smaz for spawning this web space! Always in my heart

And next, if it's ok, would you guys like just posting a summary of your 2014? How did those 365 days go? So, here's mine:

2014 was so much soul searching for me. I kind of made it my selfish year which was hella awesome. I gained so much confidence in myself this year and learnt not to care about lots of stuff.
I got super loose this year, was a little reckless, made and spent lots of money and had a shit ton of fun while  kinda neglecting my studies.
It was also an extremely gay year for me, I experienced all the homo.
I had an amazing year with crazy ups and downs and loved all of it. Also I have the greatest homies in the world.  Cheers cunts!

Also did anyone make New Years resolutions?

I'm so fucking itchy. Everywhere. I put dermo creme on but it seems to irritate some areas more- and now i've gotten to the point where it aint satisfying until blood comes out.
This is hell
I can't sleep

Man family is annoying.

Family is annoying as shit.

Like okay I'm gonna rant a bit here, so Dad and Anshoo are here now, and like everything has to be my Dad's way, like just no matter what, what he says goes. I don't agree with him a lot, because at this point in time, I am no longer a child and being forced along with everything he does as an adult, being treated like a child is hugely irritating. 

Like today, I was clearing up the inside table and he was like, I want to sit outside, and that had to be the thing, and like it'd be fine if that was it but they made me stop clearing up the inside table, because that was unnecessary. Like my actions were not a terrible thing, if it rains, we're gonna need the inside table, if it's cold, we're gonna need the inside table, but no apparently, I did the wrong thing and I was sent off like a naughty child. They're also super set on family meals which like would be fine except like every meal is a family thing, even takeaway, like nothing can be a quiet affair, the table always has to be set and everyone has to come and sit down and eat together. I mean it's probably just in such a contrast to my daily life, cause family meals aren't a thing for me, at least not on a regular basis, other than special occasions cause it's really not thing when we'd all rather be doing other things or actually do have other things to do, and they were shocked at this and then realised my age, something they admit they forget.

Dad also has this tension around him, every single time he's ever dealing with anything it's stressful, and I just hate dealing with it, it's always work or family or something that he's stressing about and it's wound around him and everyone around him like spiderweb. It's really toxic to be around. 

Just generally it's a really awful uncomfortable atmosphere, and sometimes it's just not that fun. 

At least Sophie is suffering with me, and I still have to get through the big Family Christmas Eve and Day Celebration. Yay!

(⊙︿⊙ )

This tv show explains so much about me

Hey wonder~

Are governments and their control really necessary? I hope one day when we are a highly intelligent race with a 100% educated people we could co-ordinate and dismiss the 'big brother' mentality that we are headed to.

It's crazy how we are the future. But will soon be the past.

Today whilst walking home, I saw what looked like a hipster party at a cafe, and as I closed in saw that it was a celebration for a lady who just turned 100 and is throwing a public party (trust the hipsters to a) be the ones to find out about it and b) mooch for all the free food and booze).

But like... 100... That's an achievement. Irrational for most, but possible for some. It's weird how we have to die, i wonder what comes of it.

人生は不思議
(what it says under HEY WONDER in the video, means life is strange).

That is just the tip of the iceberg of how i've been thinking as of late. Think think thinkinggg

After all the planning i was doing for exchange sem 2 next year...turns out i just remembered my bro gets married in dec. Bye spainnnn. I guess i'm stuck in straya for a while

Waste

I find myself throwing out a lot of pill bottles and boxes and things cause I take a lot of medicine now. I feel like I'm doing things they do in movies and TV to represent addiction in a way, I find movies don't really represent where I sit in my life very much, particularly not in terms of (lack of) addiction. But anyway, I chuck out a lot of medication bottles, sachets, packaging, and it seems like it's always used to represent some sort of addiction and this is a weird thing that constant medication use means to me. Like many people, most people in fact that take constant medication are not addicted to it, they just need it to get by, like me, so why is addiction the first thing that springs to mind? Like I mean I semi-know the answer but I also sorta don't.

People don't want to be confronted with sick people but that implies everyone who takes medication everyday is sick, which is kinda not really 100% true. I mean, people on the pill could be taking medication each day, they aren't necessarily sick, like there's a massive contrast between being confronted with people who are sick and basically bedridden, and taking medication and people who are taking medication on a daily basis and still functioning and basically having a normal life, and there's many shades between.

I don't really have a point.

In other news, I had an ultrasound this week and I get to have another one next week, and there was another blood test, so yeah, I'm really glad medicare exists. So many doctors. I've literally had like 13 different tests in the past 18 months like scans or electrical measures, x-ray, LP, etc, and so many blood tests. Like so many. I think they've tested my general blood count, whatever that is, like 5 times now. My symptoms are acting up 99 different ways and worsening and I honestly just don't know how to deal with it all. I just don't even know what to do any more, like the symptoms are becoming the focus but not even because I'm focusing on them because there are so many of them they sort of cover over things, maybe I should go see somebody, or something, I dunno. Fuck, sorry guys, shit's hard right now, it's been a not good week.

Anyway, here is a picture of something nice

A photo of a baby monkey I took in India

this song gets me through the days

making a game

so I'm making a game again in my spare time
this time using an adult programming language
check it out here

...ok I'll admit there's not a lot there at the moment

Essays and no.

I should be doing my essay but I don't wanna. So many methods of procrastination, it's due on Wednesday though and I don't want to be rushing to complete it then in case I feel shitty then, and it's a bad day. So I have to at least write a rough draft today, so it's all good for Wednesday if things are not good. Busy week is busy

Also, check this photo out from the cocktail evening. my mum thought this photo was funny, cause we were all looking one direction (except Marlena).

I'm on a photo binge atm, anyway, I will go back to writing/starting my essay now.

I woke up at 7, gamed till 9-9:30, then went back to sleep till 12... Then woke up and forgot i gamed and was surprised/sad to see i'd already done the achievements. I also watched avatar in that time, and forgot. #beingprepared

Ha ha ha. ha ha ha. ha. ha

its naruto day.. they did it.. seven hunned..

also this is the 4200th post of this blog (includin unpublished drafts)