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I thought i'd post now. I just had a spanish meetup with le smaz n marelanman. Man i drunk alot. it's rare that i come home at 2 (on a weds) and am v, fucking drink. Lol. So like, the group; it's a funny unwritten code aint it. Wheneevr we feel alone we tend to meet up more i guess, it's a safe backup! That's good, i really feel that that which we bond with eachother is loneliness, we all experienced it in our own ways, do you not agree? Loneliness, ain't it funny. Now i can't unsee us as a human race being no diferent from a group of bacteria that seeks to expand for no rational reason but to expand.
The world would be better without humans in my opinion. There are plenty of reasons to keep us here, but it does not out weigh that which why we should stay here.. greed; burden, that's what we are essentially. There is no greater purpose but amusement.

I sleep at night and dream of dolphins rescuing me from open oceans and sharks; who am i to listen to. But who aren't i to listen to. Why judge. Why not. Do your emotions constrict your judgmental views? But emotions make you human. What if we had no emotions?

I miss being 4. Not in school, not cognitively incapable, but incapable of remembering exactly where i left my lion king plushie around the house; yet still remembering it exists somewhere where i would leave it. It's almost like a dream living at that age, like a drunken swallowed dream. Parents speak of things we don't comprehend, only that which we pretend to understand yet don't really. Toys we play with are only limited by our imaginations and embarassment. Expectations are realised exceeded or unmet. Repeat.

How do we choose to live life now? We are capable of educated informative choice. Is it interest that segregates us, or our liberal desire? Do you like things because of nature or nurture? Does it matter in the long run? You may after all just be a video game character to dimensions incomprehensible.

This life is cruciating my mind, i just follow a distinct path between happy desirable and economical. Money is ajoke in my personal view.

I have no idea what i've written about nor if i will concieve it in the morn.. It's 2.26AM and i say, wtf am i livng for

Good night, may my body recover so it brings me passed dusk to waken and start anew