Video game vision is coming back

Where special events are like cut scenes, interactions with people are option based and strategic, a general lack of high emotion but still passionate somehow. I don't mind it, it just makes me feel dull and grade everything I do in a ranking from 'S/A/B/C/F.' For example, if i do the dishes afterwards i imagine the rewards screen after, look at time taken see a "B" or something come up. Speaking with people i take more time to think ahead about what is coming in the conversation, so i talk slower and use body gestures that aren't really mine but rather that of a business man or something.
Shoulda stopped playing games as a kid, i'd be so much more productive otherwise. I wonder what normal people do to waste time alone... Maybe they're never alone; hence they haven't developed a self-defining character.
I want to observe people's daily movements, understand why they do things and what they're thinking of surroundings; how much they notice or care (e.g a construction company on a sidewalk, or broken glass on the street).