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So today everyone said i was stressed, even though i wasn't (You are not in my head, you cannot say for sure, all you are doing is presuming based on how i am acting); and then them saying I was stressed, stressed me out, because to be honest it was kinda being forced onto me and has been for the last few days, I will admit I am on edge, it's not exactly easy, as we all do, I have a lot of work and I am under Maria's reign with dance, so i spent this morning before school and after dancing, which is what I am supposedly doing aswell. And I will admit, I was a bit emotional, realising we have a term and a half left before it's all gone. But I was not stressed. You guys shouldn't do that, and yeh I will name a name, I'm sorry Smaz, but basically yelling at me, that I was stressed almost made me cry, I'm just letting you know, it's not an attack, it's just how I felt, and I would prefer if you didn't do it again.
So yes, I will admit, I am emotional at the moment about the end of school and I am tired with a lot of work and dancing, and I am busy with work. But for gods sake, I am not stressed about schoolies, to be honest, it is at the back of my mind, I was merely asking people, to give me a week, because I have a lot on my plate and maybe stop asking for stuff, I know who wants to be with who. I know, I am not a retard, I can see the major group structures, but I also know who gets along with everybody and who doesn't. also, 3 people versus like 10 is like well sorry 3 people if it is not optimum, i will still try and make it good for them, but i can't make it fantastic for them and only ok for everyone else, it's a balancing act. No, I am not asking for you to take the job away, as that is actually a bit insulting, like I can't do it, I am not trying to prove anything, I just feel weak and useless if you take the job off me, I know that sounds stupid and it is. but it's the way it makes me feel when you disregard all the effort I put in, just to do it instantaneously so , I am just asking for a little time. And can you please stop asking me why I am organising it now. I explained it on the fb page and to various people, ask someone.
Yeh, basically, just stop telling me I'm stressed because to be honest, I wouldn't mind it but every time you say it, it feels like you are attacking me, and I feel like I am weak because you all seem fine, and you have just as much work to do, well you know what, this is me and the way I react at the moment. And then it feels like you are pushing me down and it's rly horrible.
You could do to lessen the pay outs as well, I know they are joking, but sometimes it hurts and then you're like Hogg Hogg Hogg and Im like, oh well, it'll be fine, but after a while it's upsetting.
While saying all that, I don't want this to cause some mega outrage because I am not pissed off or anything, and this was written in a calm tone, or meant to be, hence the avoidance of swearing. I just wanted you to know how I feel, as kitsch as that sounds. Also I have posted it rather than saying it because I am fragile emotionally at the moment and sometimes I do want to cry, and I don't want to do it in front of you, if you choose to disregard this and keep yelling at me.
Anyway onto a nicer note, dance was fun today and the yr 11 and 12 parts are looking good and the non-mandatory one is looking great, but yr 7, 8 and 9 are not very enthusiastic. Also while I was exhausted, chem was still interesting. I like chem