Ok so I am going to put myself in the firing line

Ok, in procrastination for ext. Maths.

So as most of you know I am an atheist, (the rejection of the belief of the existance of deities).
I was watching youtube videos and there was this one troll girl, that made a video about how god is great and japan. And I dunno if she was telling the truth or not cause to be quite honest, trolls piss me off so much. I am looking at you, Maxim.
Anyway, I then was thinking about religion and atheism, and trying to work out why I don't believe in anything. I guess the first reason is an atheist. It's like as child you are taught what it's ok to say and not to say and thus that's what you believe for a lot of your life. And I am not going to question that part any more. People are raised how they are raised and there is no going back and changing it, so that's it.

Then I was thinking about, well outside how I have been raised, why do I not believe in a god?
I guess I have also been raised in a scientific family, and things that have been proven are valid, like gravity and that light is a particle and a wave and the speed of light is a constant, etc. And I was thinking about the existence of a deity in relation to proof. And I was thinking, the existence of a higher power hasn't been proven, or not to me, anyway. And I mean, if you could prove to me, by more than a supposed miracle, or "something with very small chance occurring". I say it like that, cause hey, maybe if jesus did exist, maybe he wasn't dead, just comatose. And maybe the floods in a supposed Noah's ark stem from the floods in northern America a few hundred thousand years ago, which is basically replicated by the movie Ice Age 2. (Not with Sid and shit and the frozen animals, but that massive flood, actually happened). I mean there are things science cannot explain and that's ok. I don't mind living in a world where not everything is predictable. But I guess the way you can look at it, is such that, everything is possible, but the infinitely small chance of something different occurring is so small it is generally not taken into account. I guess that is kind of going down quantum physics road now.

I mean come to think of it, I guess the existence of a deity gives people a certain hope, that life isn't all there is and there is a supposed progression of the soul. But I am sorta certain that in this world, there is enough to have a life, and live it too. There is so much in this world and if you can seize the day, there is enough for it to be enough, just one life for it to be enough. I mean I can think of so many things I want to do, see, experience, hear, smell, taste. I mean in one life, maybe there isn't enough time, but of all the things in the world. In one life, I think there is enough to be satisfied. Like after a fine meal, just to look at your plate and feel content, not needing desert, not to hungry not to full. I guess that is my metaphor for religion, people want another course or dessert. I want my life to be like a fine meal, at the end, wherever I am, whatever has happened to me, to look back at my life and go, "For all the things it was, and all the things it wasn't. This is the end and that was the best." I mean, I guess you never know about dying, I think you never really know, like being asleep, it's just you don't really wake up. In a state of non-existence. Like I said before though, there is a small hope that some time in the future that my particles will go on to create bigger and better things, maybe a supernova, or a whale or a sun. And it will change and be recycled and you know, after humans are extinct, and Earth has gone, maybe on some far planet my existence will be recreated, you never really know, cause really it is all a possibility in some respects.

Yeh that's really it.