i cannot stand to see those eyes as apologies may rise, i must be strong, stay an unbeliever

Hello, um, im still confuse. what damage did i do chelyne?
i know i was wrong for calling you a bitch, i was over reacting and i was just trying to justify my opinions. i apologise for calling you a bitch and over reacting. see, i changed the post. im really really sorry and i dont know what else i can do to change that. you will probably not get over this and disown me as a friend. but besides calling you a bitch, what did i do? why did i do that was so mean and rude besides that? i love you and i even tried to get you back in the blog. what can i do now, i cant change the past. and people said that we will not remember this in 10 years time. but because the past makes the present makes the future, because of this, you will probably hate me.
i hate life. i already apologised for calling you a bitch what else do you want? chocolates? money? nutella? material items? see chelyne, everyone is on your side. no one but my gay sister is on my side. i told you they loved you and that they will back you up. see. and they did. im really sad, angry and frustrated about this situation cause i didnt think what i did was like this extreme of bad. i really want to back up my argument but people are just going to get more angry at me.i think im going to cry.... (i just did)
oh wait, i have to apologise to the rest of the blog people:
SORRY FOR MAKING CHELYNE GO AWAY> it was entirely my fault(for calling her a bitch and justifying my opinions) and i really dont know why people are blaming my ugly twin.