Sunday, March 14, 2010

My weekend

You know what

I dont rly know the difference between school and not school anymore.
Its so scarily weird.
Like I get up, go to school, do 7 or 8 hrs of school
I get on the bus, go home, do 6 hrs or maybe less of work, then go to bed.
Like i swear that is my entire life.

It only just hit me today, when I was studying and its like, wtf? i have done literally nothing else, only that movie.
Like I know its whats meant to happen, but like its such a change, last yr imy weekends and school days were so well defined and seperated. but now, its sorta just blurred.
Im not stressed or anything its just sorta a revalation. For example thursday night. i went to school, finished at 2:35. went home, got home at 4, and worked til like 1am. it was ridiculous.
Ah well
Brian, did you get this? or Joel?
AM i the only one feeling like my school life has become the only life i have?
Dont get me wrong, im not stressed or anything but its just yeh

Hoggle/s

7 comments:

JD said...

Me? Naw not really... well actually to be honest I do kinda feel it by I go out of my way to not do any work on weekends... also I do bludge subjects :D

AcionMan! said...

I get the same feeling, but for a different reason. For me, growing up and looking toward the future and all, I realised that school has become such an integral, basically central part of my life. Not just the fact that it's where I spend most of my "work" time, but it's like, my whole life sort of revolves around it. Yeah, yeah, I know, literally every student's does, but I mean like my life revolves around it more than just the only time I can do other stuff is during non-school time. It's like, it has become PART of my daily routine. For me, getting up at midday and going to the city to play games for 4 hours with my friends is no different to getting up at 7 to go to school for 8 hours to learn with my friends; only slight variations of the same thing.


Like, I found this out recently, when I woke up one day, after sleeping in, and was like wondering if I should have a shower or not and whether I should have coffee, etc. (coz I probably stayed up the night before late.) And, I decided I was just like "I cbf imma sleep and get dressed at 7.55." Which, previously, had been unnacceptalbe and only something I did on the weekends, when it didn't really matter if I did or not.
But now, school is just - something I go to. Sure, it's to learn to get a job, etc. And sure, it's not really voluntary, but it is just so engrained in me that it like - is my life.


I dunno, it's hard to explain.
(Also typing with weights tied around your arms if fluffing hard.)

Hoggle said...

lol y do u have weights tied around ur arms?

⚡ Ms Golden Week ⚡ said...

well at least you didnt waste your weekend away trying to think of ways to procrastinate.


and digitalism, where is your display pic from..

JD said...

It's Near, from Deathnote :D

I love that guy so much!

Șмž said...

well, for you organised people, that may be the case...

(smaz gets that bad feeling he gets when he talks about himself)

I find it really hard to just do work, and that's really catching up on me now that we're in year 11; for example, I was alone yesterday at my house and I just couldn't do work... no distractions or anything, assassins creed 2 hadn't downloaded - far from it, only 5 or 6 hours in - and I was thinking to myself, I should do my physics prac report, being due the day before and everything. and I just couldnt do it

and for me at least, I feel like school is just this unsurmountable wall, I'm surrounded by people such as yourselves who are standing on top of it, and Im just pretending Imma survive... my school and personal life are completely seperate, more than ever, I have a sleep disorder (so says the doctor) and so I usually end up sleeping straight after school, so what little time I have awake outside of school I make sure to spend on things outside of school, otherwise I would go insane. If we didn't have study periods, I would be long gone. I'm finding particularly with subjects I have no interest in (modern history, half of physics, half of ancient, english) that I don't really understand what's going on, and I find it really hard to concentrate (being half asleep and all) and so when it comes to things like writing an essay on the parthenon marbles or writing an essay on the american dream I don't do anything and fall way behind.

School is moving too quickly as well, I can't remember much of the term but so much has happened...

The amount of work we're suddenly getting and my inability to do it coupled with my imminent depression means Imma have fun time this year, I feel overwhelmed already and its not even hard yet, I can't wait until the holidays so I can catch up... Poor Joel and Brian in year 12, must be shitloads harder for them...

man I wish I still did italian... id give up my perfectly timed frees for that any day...

imma get bad feeling i get about talking about myself so imma stop now. (but i write a shitload of parenthesis and elipsis...)

Șмž said...

not to complain or anything... bah, I sound so complainy in a bad way...